this will be brief as the more time I spend sitting and thinking the more the tears flow...the weekend went well, made it to the viewing on thursday and as expected...broke. I successfully got up and spoke friday, God gave me the strength...I didn't make it through even the first sentence before the tears came. So, a speech that should have been 2-3 minutes took more like 5-6 with my stopping to compose. I was glad I spoke, my cousin spoke after me...and 2 things with that 1-she didn't write anything down, which when emotional, you need to have it in front of you and 2-I was SO proud of her...she has some anxiety issues so to even get up there really showed how much she loved gramps. I was glad I spoke cause I will be honest, my dad's eulogy stunk. I was disappointed...which is saying something, cause he did a beautiful job when my grandma passed. I don't know what happened, if it was too hard for him or what...but to best explain it I will say he spoke around grandpa...about the eras he lived through and about the town and not so much about gramps...his character...who he was...how he left an impact. But whatever.
I have grieving yet to do...it keeps hitting me...I am avoiding all pictures of him at the moment cause I just can't handle it...even the pics from my mom's birthday party (the night he passed) just kill me...I am having a hard time with the girls' birthday coming up and realizing he's not going to be there...grieving sucks....period. And now because all I have posted the last 3 times are blogs without words, I will atleast post a couple pics of my girls from the weekend...pics from our time playing at gramps' farm.
cordi was obsessed with this hat on thursday...
climbing the gate to the horse pen...yes we are atleast 1/2 monkey...
loved this as a "twin" shot...don't think they even realized they were mirroring...
my favorite...the cat LOVED following cordi...
ari playing, "I run away!!!" meaning she says that and takes off...did I mention she's QUICK?
love this cause you can see both of them in the shot...
Oh geez Tracy, I'm so sorry! I had no idea! I haven't been on FB forever, so if you posted there, I didn't see it. I was stopping by to leave a funny little comment because I was so happy to hear from you! Well, no funny comments...but I will say that your girls are absolutley gorgeous. GORGEOUS. And the picture in your header nearly took my breath away. And the pictures of the girls with long, long hair...oh my! Tracy, I'm so sorry about your grandpa. I will pray for you tonight. Hugs! XOXOXOXOXO
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