So, Thanksgiving went well. After all the chaos of gramps being in and out of the hospital we had Thanksgiving at my parents house, which worked well and was nice to not have to drive. I helped out this year by making the turkey, potatoes and stuffing...oh I and I made banana bread and some fall sugar cookies too. The day was nice, it was great to have all the family there...gramps still wasn't feeling well, having issues breathing. I did get the chance to snap a few more pics of him with the girls, so I was VERY thankful my new camera showed up Wednesday.
Some Thanksgiving shots...
The girls LOVED cranberry sauce...
Ari and gramps...
Cordi and Gramps...
Ari and my Aunt Karen (her great aunt)...
Giving Aunt Karen a kiss...
Cordi, Aunt Karen and cousin Hannah...
Friday my mom called, they took gramps back to the hospital. He had a rough night and was still having issues breathing. After further testing they found he is in congestive heart failure. After talking to the dr's a bit more they deteremined that a bypass is the only thing that would fix the current issues but due to his age and current state no one is willing to operate. So...he is on medications to manage, he has to slow his lifestyle WAY down and he is no longer allowed to live by himself. This is a HUGE issue...gramps lives about 2.5 hours away and getting him to agree to move or convincing him he can't live by himself anymore is well...a challenge. I feel bad for my mom...she is bearing the brunt of all of this...the dr's, the arrangement, gramps...I can tell she is overwhelmed and stressed. She doesn't always handle stress well...heck I don't really handle stress well. Hoping for everyone's sake this all calms down and everyone can find a routine that works...meanwhile, prayers are still coveted for gramps. I am obviously concerned about his health, and still having issues facing what lies in the future...but more than anything I still worry about his salvation.
I have been having a rough week or so...emotions are high with the gramps thing, things around here have been busy which means I am physically tired...but more than that I am emotionally tired. The issues of the last year or so are really taking their toll on me and I am not handling it well. I was sitting in church yesterday as they were starting advent readings and they started playing a recording of the reading...it took me all of 2 seconds to realize it was Armen's voice. I broke. My heart aches for him to be back in service with me. I miss him so much. I was not expecting to hear his voice, not expecting to be reminded of days when his heart was right and he was serving in the church. It all was too much. With everything else going on that week, I just couldn't bear it. I still have confidence he will come back, that the issues he has with the Lord will work out and his heart will once again seek after the Lord. All that to say, I am emotionally beat. Why does it seem that when things are the most tiring is when things get piled on all the higher? I really would like some peace. In my heart, emotionally and frankly in my life.
So yeah...holiday was good, so glad to get to celebrate with my gramps and family..but life continues...stress continues...and so...I guess I continue.
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