Blessed...

I meant to blog about this earlier...heck I mean to blog about a lot of things, but they wind up in the "to blog about" file in my head which either gets shoved to the back of my head or sometimes misplaced...so here is my effort to bring atleast one thing I meant to blog about into existance.

I am blessed.  Despite the frustrations, sorrows and let downs of life...I am blessed.  God has really reminded me of that the last week or so.  I have some amazing friends...that has been the biggest blessing to me of late.  A week ago Saturday Armen and I were watching TV in the evening when we heard a knock on our door...mind you it's HARD to hear a knock on our door from the basement, so that was a miracle in and of itself!  We went to the door to find a delivery man bearing a carseat box.  This wouldn't be unusual, had we ordered a carseat...we had not.  Thing is, we have been debating back and forth for awhile on carseats and since the girls haven't hit 20 pounds yet we haven't felt the pressure to buy new ones.  Though we do have the need.  The other issue has been with the house, we have been trying so hard to put whatever little amounts we have here and there into the house to get it tied up and long term liveable...so needless to say, shelling out like $400 to buy 2 carseats, was a lot to ask.  SO, when we opened the door to find a guy handing us one...I was floored.  After a bit of research I was kindly told that some "elves" (I in fact was not given names) went in and bought us one of the carseats we had been wanting/needing.  SO very humbling.  Even now as I write this I am tearing up.  If any of my "elves" read my blog...thank you.  Thank you from the bottom of my heart.  This year has been rough, there have been days I really didn't know what to do or where to turn, and to know that you all care so much to bless us in that way, despite everything, is so HUGE.  I feel like I have been a truly crappy friend, as life as come in the way and I have felt like I have had to be more self focused to heal and do what is needed/what I am called to, in my own family.  Thank you for loving me and caring even when I can't/haven't shown you how much you all mean to me.  So yeah...hugely blessed by that.

Secondly, I have friends that have been willing to watch my girls, for various reasons...whether it be I just needed a hair cut or so I could work a day for my previous employer.  As someone that cares for them daily, I know how tiring that is...and I am atonished and SO blessed when someone is willing to do so for me.  Like I said, it's been a rough year, and there have been some issues with family that were at one point willing to help me out, not being able/willing due to other circumstances being introduced.  And while I fully understand the complications, it has been very hard on me.  To have friends that are busy with their own lives that are willing to step up and help out...has been a huge blessing as well.  I have had a friend go out of her way just to bring me coffee...and with it a bit of sanity...again, so undeserved, but such a blessing.  I have found strength in places and people I never knew could be there.

To all my dear dear friends who have stepped up...you are truly amazing.  I love you so much!  I cannot say enough, you mean the world to me and I am so thankful for the blessing God has allowed you to be in my life.  I do hope that I can return the blessing to you someday, and do look forward to the opportunity.  Thank you so much.  I am truly humbled...so humbled.